Monday, Sept. 20, 2004 - 12:23 a.m.
Here the seasons do not slide gently into each other it seems. Instead, one day it's warm, the days last forever and the next the wind it biting your skin and the sun is setting at 7:30. Autumn has arrived.
There is a saying: when it rains it pours. Apparently this is true, at least for my love life (in an almost annoying degree).
Lately I get attention from guys much more frequently.
I got asked out Saturday. This guy came into the store about two weeks ago, just before Labor Day. I helped him pick out gifts for his mom and sister and friend. I learned that he was from Chicago (because that's where he was going to be taking these gifts) and through the miracle of small talk that he now lived in New York because he was starting out in environmental law. All in all a nice guy.
And Saturday he came back to the store and asked me out. And it just kind of hit me. I was single for two years. No one interesting asked me out during that time. And now I'm getting asked out by someone that I would have said yes to three or four months ago, but now, aside from being flattering, it doesn't really matter to me.
Except this. I know that it can't be easy to ask someone out. So I don't like the rejecting someone process. I mean, it's not terribly hard when it's a complete weirdo or someone 20 years my senior (which happens to me way more than it should) But this was a nice, normal guy. So I told him the truth: that I was flattered, but involved. He even handled that gracefully.
But it made me think about something someone I knew was talking about once. (Could this sentence be any more vague?)
She was talking about how people that are looking for love, but are unhappy don't really find it because they radiate that unhappiness, and people that are in love just radiate joy and beauty, which, of course, attracts people.
I think there is truth to that. I don't think I was unhappy before necessarily. But I do think that somehow I'm more attractive now because I'm giving off a glow of love or something.
Then my boss kind of annoyed me because she said "why didn't you take his number" and I said "because I'm dating." to which she responded "but that's the point of dating, to date several people."
She went on to tell me (after I explained that I was in a relationship) "but he was cute. You should have at least gotten his number, or given him a card with your name on it."
She makes no sense to me.
To do that would imply that I think there is a chance that my current relationship will fail. And, therefore would not only be rude to Jairo, but completely untrue. Because with every day that passes, my feelings for him get stronger and I know that I made the right choice.
And in other news, I'm working for a comic shop again. Well, extremely part time, but it's nice.
The shop owner remembered that I'd once mentioned my former time spent behind the comic counter and asked me if I could work Fridays for him for a few months. So I said ok.
This was promptly changed by my other job when they told me that they would need me to start working Fridays soon. But in the meantime, I'm working the comic shop until my other job schedules me a Friday. When that happens, the comic shop owner said he might have some work I can do from home (computer stuff I guess), which is nice of him.
Either way. It's nice to be in that atmosphere again. There's something friendly about it that I'd missed.
