Tuesday, Nov. 02, 2004 - 6:03 p.m.
Three things.
Resolution.
YOu know that uncertainty, that disconnected feeling I felt about Jairo wanting me in his world? All gone. I never even brought it up.
Last weekend, he just didn't want the evening to end and said "let's go to my place." I asked if that was a problem and he didn't get why. And I asked about his mom and he explained that he had just been waiting for Thanksgiving but that he was tired of waiting.
So the next morning I met his mom. She was very nice even though it was a short meeting. She said I should come over for dinner sometime and didn't know why Jairo hadn't already brought me. There was a bit of a language barrier there, but I got a nice feeling from her.
And then we spent the morning together before I went to work and the eve together after work. And I can't explain it but something made me feel like there was a slight change, and again I had to go with how he's looking at me. And there's something there that calmed all of my issues.
And on the tail of feeling really good....
My dad called me yesterday. And since my dad never calls, I knew what was up before I even answered. My great-grandmother had died.
Granny.
I'll be honest I didn't know her very well. I only would see her at family gatherings when I was a kid and as I grew older and moved out of state even less than that. But I was always amazed by her.
She lived until she was 96 and until the last few years of her life she took complete care of herself. I remember her as vibrant and full of life.
I'm worried about my grandfather though. He was close to his mom. And I don't really know what to say or do.
And finally....voting.
I voted today. I stood in a short line at 10 in the morning and I was the only one under 50.
I think that not enough young people vote and that's why most laws are made only taking people over a certain age into consideration.
I was also thinking that the electoral vote should be ended. I think that more people would vote if it was, because I think that more people would feel like their vote counted.
Here's why. When you live in a state that always goes a certain way, if you disagree it almost feels like "why bother." The only votes that really seem to matter are the swing states, where every person's vote is crucial. Well, every person's vote everywhere should be crucial....and more people would vote if they felt that were true.
But in the meantime, I'm still voting. Because I want my say....it is my right and, I feel, my responsibilty. And, if nothing else, it gives me the right to complain later if things don't go my way.
