Tuesday, Nov. 23, 2004 - 2:01 p.m.
I feel that there is a cruel irony working in my life right now.
I get offered jobs I hate right when I'm trying to find jobs that I want....and seemingly continueing to fail. So I feel almost forced monetarily to go for the sure thing.
And right when I have all this trouble is when once again it seems that I get opportunities to hang out with people that remind me of a lost opportunity. And while I want to see one or two people I really like and don't see much since I no longer work there, I get stuck seeing everyone that works there. Literally, they *all* were there.
So I'm done with outings like that. If I'm going to see anyone from that job, it has to be seperate from functions relating to that job. For my own sanity. I can't keep being the only one there that doesn't work there. It just brings back this hurt and keeps my relationships with any of them from moving on.
....I'm starting to question my direction. I'm starting to feel like I should try to move in a new direction....I just don't know what that direction is.
